I've got about ten minutes to get this right and do what I never can in an hour of staring at the damned screen. It always takes between 3 and 7 cigarettes to say anything for me. I have a single cigarette's time allotted. No fucking way.
I just want to say that everything scares me and I hope to someday find a place where I not only can be alone, but want that, too. I want to kill the part of me that wants to be loved.