Holding the other Jen
I think about the Hopi time line as each moment finding itself independent of any moment preceding, regardless of any similarity of location or participant and I wonder if we change. We have to by these definitions and I find that freeing.
I hope so.
I hate the idea of finding myself 33, done - a has been who never really was, and just like my father. I have spoken of the tyranny of emotions. How do you experience them without letting them drive?
I am not going to do this, unlike the Hopi this day needs to remain connected to all others and like them, it needs to be entirely new. I was talking to Jen early, early this morning about that, about how I can have several things that seem to contradict live next to each other in my head, it's never seemed a paradox until I put it next to other people.
Well, this ached. Enough.
Posted by Kevin at 3:45 PM