24.4.13


Every so damn often I make the resolution to write. I say I'm going to come back to this page and put things down publicly...and I never really do.

See, follow through is a tough order for me. Also, typing...hmmm...I'm not damn good at it.

I am phenomenal with ellipses.

I remember this song. It was based on a book, Love in the Time of Cholera, I think, or maybe One Hundred Years of Solitude. I can't remember. I do remember every word to the song and it was laughable. It was this analogy that I once heard Garrison Keillor make fun of. He talked about how all the songs were about rivers and that life was a river and time was a river...Either way in this song Time was like a river...but in the end - and you do reach the end - you turn the boat around.

Maybe. Timshel. Maybe Timshel.

Still, I've waited a long time and the memory that comes back to me with the song is one where I met the song writer at Mike's first wedding. I went with a group of people I never see anymore. some of them aren't married anymore, either. I wasn't married. I had forgotten my belt. Ah, the shit you recall. Drinking at a Mennonite wedding. With people I some times miss. Woodsy was lost to me by then, Schumi was always a mystery. Justin impregnable. Santoro insane. I blew it all. Almost everyone of those relationships from Chad to Sarah is gone. And we shared a room because I never had any money.

Long time gone. Long time.

Gone.

2 comments:

Me said...

Ahh...East of Eden...really...you are nostalgic...Joni mitchell has the best River song...sharing was the best of times...nothing is ever really gone...it can not be...law of physics...nothing is created nor destroyed...whether you see it or not...it's just time...or a river...thou mayest...

Me said...

Ahh...East of Eden...really...you are nostalgic...Joni mitchell has the best River song...sharing was the best of times...nothing is ever really gone...it can not be...law of physics...nothing is created nor destroyed...whether you see it or not...it's just time...or a river...thou mayest...